2004-12-13 - 4:13 p.m.
Sorry I missed updating you last Friday. I must sadly inform you that you missed Symposium. Friday teh 3rd was Symposium, with a handful of people, new and old, partaking of sacred beverages. Critical mass was hit at 2 am almost on the head. The handful of us that remained, settled down and discussed time briefly. It did not get as prosaic as one might suspect, and I scarcely think I even got to reply, for the handful was crashing in on itself. I got to sleep around 4. Saturday got spent in sleep and at the Faery game. Sunday barely existed, and wasn't that good, what little there was, after such an exhausting time. Monday was good in that make you want to vomit blood way. Tuesday I settled in to work on my class project. Wednesday was spent patching my head back together, with breakdowns on the hour, and working on my final project for class. I then presented to the class in my off the cuff manner. I believe Thursday I felt better, or finally got tired of taking hits, so I came back to my senses, and felt alive again. Friday I put together more pieces on the great puzzle that is heart ache, and keep working on it. I also hung out with awesome people, which was good. Saturday I did laundry all day, cleaned the kitchen, and played with music without listening to any. Sunday we tried to shop the mall, and ended up at Target instead. Then rested the afternoon playing SIMS 2.
That's been my time. I feel lots better than I have in a long time, and now am merely nervous and facing my demons/sociolization. I found two more pieces to put into that puzzle, and I think once they are placed into the weave, everything should fall into place, one way or another. I feel like a weary soldier, going in for another tour, which is loads better than feeling like an empty shell.
So, endurance in the face of adversity. Things change, and they always do. That doesn't mean we have to let them wither. Rather it gives us the imperative for growth. Growth is full time work, and it is hard, since the competition is generally yourself or the universe. Here's to luck in your race.
