2005-03-07 - 4:07 p.m.
Hallo everyone,
I am sure you noticed the drop in postings. That has been because life has been busy, and nothing has been happening.
Life is busy in that I am running around occupying myself with stuff to do. Life is empty in that I am waiting to see how things will happen. My positive thinking in relationship to Love, the specific, versus Love the deity, is at an end. I am just run out in that one arena. I have plenty for the rest of the world, but my work there is done. I don't like this. I might change it, but I can no longer find motivation. So I am trying to give myself a break in this one field, but not doing a good job at it, which is why I should probably keep trying. I feel near the top of my game everywhere else, but I am just emptying out in this one place. Oh well, either I will eventual cut myself some slack, or I'll tighten up on the reigns. I am drifting towards resignation, and I can't tell if I want it or not. Such is life.
Part of my time away was spent running the booksale, which pretty much ate an entire week of my life. After that, work was spent cleaning up from it. I have been rewatching Twin Peaks, which is good for the soul. I also have been having great fun with the Faerie game.
Saturday was my B-day, and I went to the Renn Faire with my Family and Shadowedge. It was great fun. Watched lots of Empty Hats and ran into everyone I had hoped and expected to. I also bought boots: Thigh-High, Buckle-up, water resistant, all-leather, guaranteed for life boots. I am quite happy with them. I am still on the break in process, but it is a nice process.
Sunday I went to the movies with my mother. We saw "What the Bleep . . ." and I liked it, though I thought it was a bit preachy. It was, however, terribly well done, and I have had bits and pieces of it replaying through my head throughout the day. Part of this is the quality of the movie, part of it is similarity with my inherent philosophy, with their easy expression of it. I tend to couch my mystery in more mystery, and not pretend that the mystery is simple. But simple is good when it doesn't complicate things. That evening we went to a dinner party at the Boat House. It was a delicious meal, though, I must admit, I wish we could have had a more memorable 2 year anniversary. Oh well, we survived the anniversary without any fighting, or real anger. That's something to be thankful for.
My thoughts are constantly on "What is best for everyone?", and un/fortunately I only have two inputs on a minimum three variable problem, without an equation to balance everything.
So there are things for the moment eternal. Much Love.
